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Monday, October 13, 2008 ( 3:21 PM )
My laptop just died on me on saturday. i was devastated, because i'd invested so much time and effort into things that were on my laptop (reports, work, videos, games etc) that when it died on me, I just panicked, kinda like when you break up with your boyfriend, or when someone close to you dies.
That shitty feeling where you didn't do what you could have done to salvage the relationship and made sure it had a good foundation (where you didn't salvage your files and back it up); another shitty feeling where you might have been able to drag the relationship further, longer (where you could have extended the life of your laptop if you hadn't downloaded this game and directly caused it to die the moment you installed it); and of course, that very very shitty feeling where you know that you've lost something special (duh, it houses all your anniversary/outing photos, games, hard work, personal documents, chat logs, blog skin htmls from yesteryear...etc etc.)
Sigh, like i've said before, human dependency on technology is stupendously mind-blowing.
At first I was so lost, like omg omgomgomg it's sunday, what am i going to do when i get home? No games to play, oh my god my cooking dash MY COOKING DASH FUCK I HAD SUCH A GREAT SCORE FUCK FUCK oh well maybe i could catch some tv.
Then I decided that it's been a long time since i've spent time with family. and so i did. :)
Yay for family. And i had a great weekend, spent with boyfriend and family simultaneously, and my family was happy cos he bought us a hefty dinner on sat cos it was my dad/sister's birthday. :) 9 people, a happy birthday(s).
i was panicking, yeah, laptop. the whole flight or fight thing, where i wanted to crawl into a ball in a corner of my room and suck my thumb til martin solved the problem.
which, unfortunately, was unsolvable.
So, moral of story, don't download games that look really nice.
EG. PERFECT WORLD INTERNATIONAL.
which i assumed would give me hours of fun, but instead would prolly cost me a bloody sum of 160 odd. Bah.
I miss my cosy laptop.