is to love and be loved.
Sunday, September 28, 2008 ( 11:59 PM )
It's a few minutes to the 3rd week of IPP,
wow, time really flies.
I miss the boyfriend, who's away in Boon Lay,
on virtually the other side of the damn island,
while I'm here weeping, feeling miserable,
actually looking forward to leaving and going to work every morning.
Looking forward to leaving and just.. leaving it all behind me,
and putting my efforts into work.
And I'm down with the flu, with a fever.
I think my body can't adapt to this, now,
work work work suddenly rest.
work work work suddenly rest. Hope I'll be better tomorrow.
She turned to him, shook his hands off her arm, glared right into his eyes.
His beautiful, beautiful eyes... full of hurt and pain and love and passion and so much more.
But she just felt waves of fear and sorrow come upon her shoulders, her heart pulsating in a morose beat she'd never felt before.
"Why can't you just let it go?" He reached out his hand to her, again.
She didn't seem to see it; she just collapsed on the floor, her palms splayed over her sobbing face. The rain washed them both, erasing traces of their tears, draining it away into nothingness.
After an eternity of tears and throbs, she drew a long, tired breath. He was still there, his hand outstretched, his eyes heavy.
"Do you know..."
she said, pushing herself off the grimy floor.
He stood, watching her. She did not take his hand.
"Do you know,"
she continued, standing up straight,
"what it feels like when your own mother doesn't want you anymore?"