Dear Cherylene,

Stay strong in this moment of truth. The one you love may be far at hand but if destiny points you to it, it will happen. And as much as you don't want what you fear, perhaps it is better, maybe not for you, but definitely for the one you love. And you have to learn how to accept this. It's not easy. It never is. But you've taken this step, out of love and consideration, and that is a progress in itself. You are calm but you know that when the day you look forward to but fear at the same time comes, you might lose your composure because you don't know what is ahead of you.

You want to tell the one you love so badly that you have finally seen the truth, and have finally realised this love's importance, and that at certain points you were acting immaturely or irrationally, or in a childish fashion, but you have thought it through and you have come to the realization that this step has allowed you to realise this; so this step is not at all bad, since you have seen your own faults and mistakes, and are now persevering to move yourself away from all these mistakes and become a better person.

You have realised, as well, that the reason why you acted so immaturely at those points in the past before was, in the first place, because you wanted to make it better, using the only way you knew how; now however, you understand that they were not the best ways to make things better, and that there is a more healthy way to do things and solve problems. And you want so badly, since you've had this sudden epiphany and realization, to act upon it and solve everything with your loved one - but you cannot, not right now. You have to endure til then. You have to give space. What people fail to realise that people need space, and even if you thought you were giving enough space, you always have to ask if the space you're giving is comfortable enough, or not - you have realised this.

Endure, Cherylene. You are doing this for the better of the one you love, and you know it, he knows it. You wish so badly to run to him in this period of distress, but you can't. Not yet. Be strong.

You want to tell him that despite what he feels, you do know him very well. You know so many things about him that he doesn't know about himself; this might sound arrogant and pompous, but you know yourself, and you know him. And you know.

You worry about the worst, because you have to prepare yourself for all the negativity that might come your way. You trust, you love, and while trust is always devoid of doubt, you don't want to have yourself living in a fairytale now. You want to prepare yourself for the worst, so you don't fall too hard later on. In this period, just learn how to be a better person, and life will take the lead from there. You want badly to feel that it'll all be a happy ending... But you know that you must never think that way, not for now, anyway. Perhaps living in a fairytale was a way of guarding yourself before, but you must snap out of it for now.

You feel an immense love in your heart, that you know even after this period, will never go away and will stay through the rest of your life, no matter what happens. As foolish as it sounds, you know it's true. You want him to feel the same, but you don't know what is in his life now. You don't want uncertainty in your life, but you cannot push for strained certainty - that is never healthy.

You want to tell him so many things, you want to tell him that things will be okay, that you will make conscious efforts, you will change, you will make things good again.

No one else can understand what you're going through right now, because after all, every situation in the world is different, there might be some similarities but there is much so much uniqueness and differences in every situation; so you try to avoid a lot of things that will not be good for you.

You hope that what is said here does not affect anything negatively. All you want is to clear your mind, and for the loved one to understand that, and to not be angry with anything said, and to remember that you wanted a clean slate.

You want to say so much more, however, but for now, you have to wait, and trust in his love, which ultimately, you very much do.

Good things come to those who wait, so be patient for your love, child.

Be patient.