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Of meetings and strangers
Sunday, September 24, 2006 ( 1:42 AM )
So, met his mom and brother and aunt last thursday.
He confirmed the time and all at 3.40 and the time to meet was 4.30, so i was kinda in a mad rush racing around the house trying to find my clothes and shoes and all that.
There was really no time for me to wash my hair before I left.
So I was more nervous about having crazy flat hair than meeting his mom. HAHA.
How bimbotic, I know.
*slaps herself*
So i took a walk to the bus stop. And HULLO, this bus stop ah. All my life I've been living here, and all my life I've had to wait pretty long for my bus at this bus stop.
But thank you very much, the moment I stepped onto the bus stop platform i see the bus roaring in the distance. How opportune. -_-
And the bus ride seemed so short. Too short, for my nervous liking.
And I was so stupid can. I wanted to stop at hg mall not knowing that the bus stops at hg interchange (hg mall is NEXT to hg interchange), so i stupid stupid so drama came down the second deck of the bus while it was still in motion and press the bell.
And then i saw the bus turning into hg interchange.
Like, not stupid what. -.-
Haha. I walked AS SLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWLY as i could to Cartel. And i walked into Cartel, asked for martin, and was directed to the corner seat where his mom and his brother were seated.
It was the first time I met either of them so my first thought as I smiled and approached them was um, correct people anot huh. later if not them wait they think i'm some crazy loony who's smiling at them for no reason.
But it was them lah, yay. :D
It was kinda scary at first cos he wasn't there, and it was a little awkward sitting there while his mom smiled at me and then continued talking in hokkien to his brother. haha. But i cooled down and relaxed muchos after he came and slid into the seat next to me.
Most of the dinner was spent with his mom and brother and aunt conversing in dialect and mandarin with bits of english spewed in between. And they are a funny bunch. Reminds me of my family, where we keep insulting and making fun of each other good(or not)naturedly with no end. :)
That's how a family should be right? Kicking each other where it hurts and then laughing about it with each other. :D:D
And i was really nervous at the beginning so much that I didn't even dare to eat luh. Afraid the chicken would fly off my plate or something and I'd make a fool out of myself.
But at one point his mom said, nervous what, all family what! (or something along those lines) and it really comforted me luh. I don't know why. :)
After dinner we scooted to his house for a while and his mom gave us guava. And the guava was delicious! Coated with some orange bits. And i loved it; this coming from a person who hates guava. HAHA.
He sent me home after, and there was this little black and white cat that was sitting under a tree below my flat. He went to play with it and sayanged it and all that, and after less than a minute the cat started purring and getting affectionate and cute and all.
And then the cat starts rubbing itself against my legs. Even when I was standing a distance away watching him psycho the kitty.
Proves how smart animals are, huh. It knew I was safe to hang around just because I was with him, I guess.
Or maybe it smelt my scent on him. Hmm. *snickers*
HA. Smart kitty. It followed us to the stairs later! I was so tempted to bring it home with me. But i can't lah. My mother would kill me, and my brother and his allergy. GRRRR.
And it was there when he came down again, he said. HAHA. But it ran off from him this time lah.
Must be afraid of him cos I'm not there lah. HEEEEEEEEEEE. :D:D:D
And gawd, I always hate to see him go. =(
Even though I might have just spent 5 hours with him.
Just came home from my uncle's 60th birthday party at this quaint little restaurant at Sembawang beach, near where my granddad's house used to be. He owned quite a bit of land that was near the sea.
And Sembawang beach is so gorgeous lor! Omg. Way better than Changi and all the other polluted beaches lah.
Saw all my cousins and aunties and uncles and nieces and a nephew I never knew existed there.
They were all grown up, older, matured.
I wasn't the only one who'd grown.
I saw one cousin of mine, who I think I was pretty close to when I was younger. Her face looked so familiar..And when her dad called her name it suddenly struck me that yes, this was a cousin I was particularly close to back then.
We kept smiling at each other during dinner cos we were sitting at the same table and opposite each other, hopefully she found me familiar too.
And then at one point my siblings all went outside, her brothers went outside, she wanted to go outside, and she beckoned me to come along, and instinctively I shook my head,
and then I kicked myself inside for my utter stupidity.
HEH.
I should have gone lah, made small talk or whatever. Then at least I'd gotten to know one cousin reasonably well instead of feeling like a complete stranger amidst them.
I feel so alienated whenever I'm with my paternal relatives. Because I rarely meet them, and I can barely distinguish who is who. Each time I meet all of them at once, I discover cousins and relatives I never knew I had, and new oh-so-friendly in-laws who don't know me.
I wish I was close to them, really, because they're a nice bunch.
But the thing is, I'm not, so end of story.
Maybe that's why I hunger so much for close friendships.
Because I don't harbour close knit ties with my gigantic extended family, anyway.
And then there was the funny incident in the car while we were driving back.
We stopped at the traffic light,
and in typical movie fashion there was this group of cute guys in the car next to us.
And they kept smiling and staring at me,
and I didn't know whether to smile back politely, flip them off or just ignore them,
so I just continued talking with my brother,
who, like the rest of the family, (thankfully) didn't notice the freak show next door.
And then they started honking the horn, goodness.
And I didn't dare to look, but I glanced at the main driver, who gave me a look that spoke volumes.
HUR.
And thank you daddy for speeding away.
-.-"
Don't be stressed, hello.
You know you're the only guy in my heart. :)