is to love and be loved.
Tuesday, May 23, 2006 ( 9:21 PM )
My soosl presentation was sucky, it was obvious we had not prepared well for it beforehand and that we were just crapping. And to further aggravate the situation were 1) Jacintha didn’t save the ppt file so we were left ppt-less (I don’t blame her because human error, who doesn’t forget stuff once in a while? But a ppt slide would have really made things better. Being ppt-less made us look really BAD and SLOPPY. Heh.)
And 2) soosl was PMSal. Argh. It was clear from the moment I first saw her black face that she was in a bad mood, and that wasn’t a good thing especially on the day of our presentation. But, what could have been done? Sigh.
But it was the best that could have happened under the circumstance that a) we WERE in truth unprepared, and b) how some people in the group weren’t familiar with our proposal and I don’t think made an effort to get familiar with it.
During the QnA session Julia was under fire since she had not spoken at all during the presentation, (cos Mutt had taken liberty to do the first slide, which meant he was going to say ALL the ideas) and soosl wanted to hear Julia answer the questioned that were raised.
But the freaking problem is, she DIDN’T KNOW HOW TO ANSWER, AND GAWD WAS IT EMBARRASSING. DEAD AIR, LOTS OF IT, AS SHE THOUGHT OUT AN ANSWER. AND I WAS NEXT TO HER TRYING TO FEED HER THE ANSWERS BUT SHE JUST WOULDN’T SAY WHAT I TOLD HER, AND I WANTED SOOOOO MUCH JUST TO RAISE MY HAND AND TELL SOOSL MY ANSWER. (“No, violence is not promoted, because hey, it’s a cartoon. Don’t u see fighting in cartoons? …)
BUT OBVIOUSLY I COULDN’T BUTT IN COS SHE HADN’T SPOKEN AT ALL DURING THE PRESENTATION AND IF I DID SQUEEZE IN SOOSL MIGHT THINK I WAS BEING INSOLENT INSTEAD OF TRYING TO SAVE MY ICA GRADE.
The question Serene asked though, greatly disturbed me… Cos the superhero cartoon idea and his strict parents and the having to lie to go out thing was kind of based on my predicament. So it kinda disturbed me when she asked, “does that mean you’re saying lying is not wrong?”
Priscilla told me I’d answered, “I’m not saying lying is wrong.” Sub-conscious digging up, much?
Lying IS WRONG, FOLKS. I am not some twisted soul who promotes lying. The point I was trying to put across (but I don’t think I succeeded in my effort) was the FUNNY WAY HE LIES TO HIS PARENTS AND THE LAME EXCUSES THAT HE COMES UP WITH TO GET AWAY. I didn’t see the loophole about the whole lying is wrong thing. And because it’s a story based on something I’m familiar with, its just…disturbing…that I don’t see the loophole in my own life until now. That lying is bad.
But sometimes you got to cover up things you don’t want specific people or others in general to know. Everybody wears a mask—it’s human nature to hide away.
(in this case of the presentation, flying s’porean superhero had to lie to his parents to get out of the house to save the world, and the story goes that HE DOES FEEL GUILTY ABOUT IT HOR, and he has this ethical dilemma of whether to lie to his parents and save the world, or sit home watching the world crumbling to pieces as he stared at the wall)
ANYWAY, HENCEFORTH, I DEEM MY SOOSL’S ICA1 DOOMED, SCREWED, KABOOS, OUT THE WINDOW, THROW INTO THE DUSTBIN AND NEVER TO BE SPOKEN OF AGAIN IN MY LIFE. (I WISH.)
Mrs Viju’s ICA1 presentation (news reading, 2 ½ minute radio bulletin) went quite well! thankfully! She said I had “nice voice, good intonation, good transition” or something like that, except I needed to project my voice. Yay. I love viju’s module now, although I’m not really interested in broadcast presentation. Heh.
I just wanna do well for (get at least a B+)
Viju’s broadcast (I hope I get an A! J)
Azhar’s scriptwriting (I hope I get an A! J)
Edwin tan’s biz presentation skills (I hope to get at least a B+)
I haven’t gotten my ICA briefs for Mr Seah’s and Latha’s one yet… im not even sure if the ica for latha is the media campaign thingy… But I hope to do well for Mr. Seah’s module too, cos his lessons are entertaining and I want to be a producer in future. And I wanna do well in azhar’s too cos I want to be either a producer or a scriptwriter (which azhar politely told me on the first day is a low-paying job, thank you Mr Azhar but I am still pretty unfazed… UNLESS IT REQUIRES DOING THE AUDIO/VISUAL THING!!!! EUUGH.) Or maybe I should just be an author. Hmmm.
Aiya, still must do the men’s fashion homework for Mr Ha by tonight… I hate his lessons, can never understand what he’s teaching! No offense Mr Ha but I just don’t get the point of every lesson. At least Mr Azhar or Mr Seah or Mrs Viju’s, I see the main point behind each lecture. Sigh.
I like feature writing for print. Maybe I’ll be a feature writer for Life! Or some magazine. Cleo? Cosmo S’pore? Lime? Hehe. The endless opportunities keep me in anticipation. J
I’ll feeling super hyper now. Must be the coffee I had. Heh.
Sunday, May 21, 2006 ( 4:30 PM )
People, I have a life.
I don't blog as often as others do, because i don't see the purpose in telling the whole world my innermost feelings. There's a reason why my innermost feelings are called my innermost feelings, because--DUH--there're in the innermost part of me..
So what's changed since I last checked in?
A LOT.
Stuff that's happened to me since centuries ago when i did my last entry:
- i have entered Nanyang Polytechnic's Media Studies and Management. I actually got thru NP's JPSAE!! (hah! spending 10bucks to spruce up my pretty portfolio was worth it. i spent 2 days making my portfolio fancy and colourful and 5 bucks photocopying my previous works and certain selective flattering certificates. i cut and paste, used colour pen, bought a new brown file, bought colored paper, plastic folders, and so on that i can't recall at this moment. I MADE SO MUCH EFFORT TO MAKE MY PORTFOLIO LOOK CREATIVE AND SMART AND COOL SO THE BOARD HAD BETTER TAKE ME IN. and they did. Hee. See, effort pays off. HEHE. i managed to psycho them into it, muahahaha) (frankly the only reason why i did JPSAE was to prove to myself that i was eligible for NP's notoriously-hard-to-get-into Mass COmm. and i did it! *victory dance*) rejected NgeeAnn's offer into Mass Comm cos it's too bloody far-hell, it's a hour long bus journey (when there's no traffic jam) (yes, i know, holy pean*t butter) ANYWAY, like i was saying. i'm in Media Studies & Management (i don't like the management part of it, heh), in class MS0601, same class as Laura, yay. I like my course, my class, generally, no complaints except now we have 3 ICAs to finish by MONDAY and i've only finished one, and Khai (THIS JUST IN) told me we have to present soosl's one tmr. Damn, shd have listened to Matthew and put my name or smth, his name REALLY SUAY man..
- ICAs completed -- azhar's, edwin's, ...and i tink thats it. the rest either still ongoing or havent started yet. sniff. MATTHEW STOP PLAYING AND COME ONLINE LA AND JULIA WHERE ARE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *cries*
- I am happily attached. :) m (:
- I have not shopped in ages, hvnt gone out in ages, havent had fun in ages. Gawd help me.
- at laura's gathering ytd, had lots of fun, wished i could have stayed overnight so that we could have actually played some truth/dare games or smth, but damn my curfew. grr. haha. halfway through the party at 9am me, jew, siok, liyun and laura went for a walk while the cjc ppl stayed inside and played payday or some lousy game. it was so FUN when we went to the chuan view playground and played on the swings. I ba zhan the centre swing (and i think i made it creak alot :P) and swung REAL high with the unsolicited but appreciated help of Jewel and Laura. I love it. Wish could have walked on forever, it was so fun, walking on the empty streets like madwomen who locked arms and walked in the middle of the road. HAHA all the stares we got from people who thought they were sane. hehe.
- i can't tink of what other change has swept me off my feet.
That's about it. Heh. Byebye.