is to love and be loved.
Monday, March 13, 2006 ( 4:35 PM )
I feel like writing a song... but i think i'm a terrible lyricist so i shan't torture people so cruelly.. (is there even such a word?)
we're (me, jew, laura, carol, siok, grace) supposed to go on a reunion (well, it hasn't been 20yrs yet, but we havent seen each other for ages) outting this thurs/sat, but! rol wont go with us on thurs because she'd rather go with her maybe potential special someone on her class outing-- come on, they see each other EVERY FREAKING day... and she's telling her mom that she's going out with us, when really, she's going out with THEM.
Gawd.
honestly, you'd think that because you havent interacted with your closest friends for a while, you'd actually want to meet up with them? But noooooooo... we dont. we want to see people we see everyday, for a change.
ya, ya, so she said she'll try to make it on saturday for us, so i might be working on thurs and might not be available, but still...
and ok, so i wasn't that close to rol, but i repeat, STILL! i mean, i havent spoken to her in ages and i want to know whats going on in my friend's life! but i guess she'd rather not know about mine? *sigh*
i know, this is unlike me to blurt like this, because i usually hold my comments in. but i think its time i voiced out. and i think carol is forsaking us, esp in the whole tell mom im gg out with the gang hor issue. esp that. thats kinda sad.
and grace is another case... i mean, she doesnt want to go out with us on saturday cos she says its crowded. ok, i can understand that reason, but then, the whole not speaking to us when shes online thing and quickly leaving the conversation window whenever we add her is another thing that kinda makes me feel a whole different degree of sadness.
again, so i'm not that close to her, but i do want to catch up, u know, like know what's going on in her life, blah blah blah. but she doesnt seem to be on the same wavelength.
i dont know... i mean, i only became a part of this clique midyr last year, and sometimes i feel like a younger member of the clique who doesnt have the right to voice out, and thats why i didnt voice out much in the past. now though...
heck it la.
i shall say whatever i want, whenever i want. be brave, cautious, but brave.
FRIENDS: i say to you... in life you shall be my sunshine, and in death you will be my memories. do crap to me if you must, and i wont retaliate, but at the very least, i'll know the truth.
harsh??
i guess so.
forgive me, but i'm just trying to speak my mind.