is to love and be loved.
Sunday, February 27, 2005 ( 9:53 AM )
I was in a really bad mood—up till Joan called me just now. Thanks—and during lunch, I got fed up with my maid for giving me a dripping wet spoon to eat with, and flung it into the sink. I’ve told her probably about a thousand times about my dislike for wet cutlery, but she still takes me for granted. And then she tells me, “Cherylene, you’ve changed. You’re like a monster now.”
I admit, I have been in a very black mood as of late, with the stress and everything. Plus for the fact that people just do not respect my plea for privacy and my request for them not to touch or move my stuff. It’s just a sin they never seem to want to stop committing, and I just get so frustrated and irate when they move my things. I know where my things are, so don’t touch it.
I’m just afraid of losing my things.
I couldn’t think of any witty remarks to backfire at that point. But it really cut me. I mean, I don’t want to be a monster, but they’ve been pushing me to breaking point. Think I like being so mean? They always say that I treat my friends so much better, but my friends are so nice to me, and I treat people how they treat me. If they’re open and friendly to me, that’s how I’ll be to them. If they’re stiff and snobby to me, I won’t be snobby, but I’ll be stiff to them. And if they treat me like I’m crap, like my family does sometimes, I won’t necessarily treat them as such, but I just won’t be happy or display cheeriness. My friends treat me so well, it’s just right that I do them the same favor.
Whoopee.